Oh No!

I am a self admitted procrastinator. I have delusions of grandeur. And, it’s caught up to me again! The Holiday craft fair is on October 17th. Do I have anything ready? NOPE!! I have a million different ideas, and have what appears to be the start of 20 or so headbands, but nothing is done. I can’t believe I have done this again this year. Last year I spent the night before the fair making a dozen tutus. I keep telling myself “Gladys, just get it done, you will not wait until the night before.” No matter how many times I tell myself this, another day goes by and nothing gets accomplished. One year of excitement for the fair has come down to two weeks of nail biting, patience testing, lady full of attitude work!

I have thought of making a check list and keeping it visible so that I have a constant reminder of what I need to do. But, the big tote full of tulle and headbands and craziness in the corner of my living room should be reminder enough. While watching an hour of tv or a movie with my husband at night I think to myself that I should be busy working on my projects, but I don’t. At work I spend breaks surfing the web for cute pictures and ideas, to pump myself up. My buzz quickly fades away. I am excited for the fair, and I am excited to show off my tutus and my headbands. So why has nothing procured my interest? Is it the nervous ping in my belly that nothing will sell, and my headbands will be the laughingstock of the fair? Maybe. Is it the fact that everyone on earth is now making tutus? Possibly. I know my tutus sell. They always do. But, everywhere I turn I see someone else making them! (Although, I still think mine are much cuter. But I am biased.) I think the fear of the unknown has kept my work at bay. It is the best answer I have. It has been what has held me back for nearly a year.

Last night I went and bought enough fabric and enough headbands to outfit a small army. Right now I am really into shabby chic prints. I bought perhaps the cutest shabby flower fabric ever! I also bought a star fabric that is sure to look amazing! I love to just mosey through the fabric store and dream of the things that could be done. I love the smell of a fresh bolt of fabric. I love finding a print that is perfect, but has been pushed to the back of the rack and forgotten. I loves running my hands across different textures and hunting for the perfect one. If I could, I would spend my days sewing and creating dresses, and all sorts of fabulous couture. Because I have such delusions of grandeur it is hard for me to sit down and make anything happen. I used to buy purses and shoes, now I buy fabric. I cannot leave wal-mart without stopping by the remnant section and looking for a perfect scrap of fabric. From this obsession my idea for creating cute and sassy headbands formed. (pictures of these headbands will be coming next week. I need to complete them first!)

I have two weeks. Just 16 days. I need to get this done!